untitled no. 2 [March 2021]

i've been in love so many times

i don't even know what it means anymore

or maybe it's the only definition i know

and anything short just baffles me

maybe it's the sea i swam

before washing up on this desert

maybe i used my chances

sucked it bone dry

fucked the life out of it

returned to the ticket booth one too many times

like a careless child

testing the limits of her delicate tummy

maybe love no longer runs hot through my veins

but sits like plaque in my arteries

maybe i'm old

maybe i'm cold

maybe i'm dead

oh love

i'm so not fucking done with you